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The voice was never far away.
“When I was younger I used to wonder who or what it was,” Fredrick Burns says. “But now I know it was the devil.” The better
grades Burns made, the nicer he was to
people, the more goals he set, the sooner
the voice returned: “You are from the
streets. That is where you belong. Quit
believing all this stuff people are telling
you and listen to me. I know you.”
At Wingfield High School’s graduation
last week, it was Burns’ time to talk -as
valedictorian, having earned a 4.25 GPA
on a 4.0 scale because of his excellence
in accelerated classes. “Nobody knows
how far this young man has come,” says
Tyrone Keys, a member of the 1985
Chicago Bears Super Bowl champions
and one of Burns’ mentors.
Burns, 18, is the third eldest of 10 children
who for years bounced from community
shelters to foster care families.
“I had good parents,” he says. “Please
don’t embarrass them in the paper. Life
is hard, and they just hit some stumbling
blocks.” It trickled down. By age 12
Burns was smoking marijuana, fighting
and stealing. Stealing what? “Food,
man,” he says. “Trying to help me and
my brothers and sisters survive.” That
was difficult to picture at graduation as
Burns walked confidently to the podium
and delivered a speech that drew both
stone silence and rousing ovations. At
one point, Burns said: “For that young
man or young lady in the audience who
feels you are alone in the world ... you
are not alone. Somebody loves you. All
of those nights you cried silently before
going to bed, trust me, God heard you.
But you must stay strong in order to
magnify his glory.”
Linda Gorden, who manages the Burger
King on State Street in Jackson, was
there to see her niece and one of her
employees graduate. She had never
heard of Fredrick Burns. Now, she can’t
stop talking about him. “That young
man gave me chills,” Gorden says.
“His words touched people’s souls. You
could see it and feel it all around me.”
Later that evening, at a rare gathering
of Burns’ family, his aunt Shirley
Burns walked up to him and hugged
his neck. It was Shirley Burns who
took her nephew into her home just
before his ninth-grade year. “I am so
proud of you,” she said to him, “because
I was so afraid you were going
to break my heart.”
The arguing was
constant between his mom and dad.
Often, it went beyond words.
One night when Burns was in third
grade, his mother gathered up the
children and went to Stewpot Community
Services, an outreach program
for individuals and families down
on their luck. They were placed at
Matt’s House, an emergency shelter
for women and children. Stewpot
officials helped Burns’ family get a
house on Deer Park Street in Jackson.
His parents reconciled, but it wasn’t
long before the shouting returned.
Burns’ escape was the street. His dad
eventually left. His mom “hit another
stumbling block,” Burns says. “She
went out one day and was supposed to
be back in a few hours.” Hours turned
into days and weeks. The 10 children
went to live with an aunt in Byram,
but she couldn’t handle them all.
The Department of Human Services
stepped in and sent them to the Sunshine
Shelter, an emergency home
for abused or neglected children, in
Natchez. While there, Burns got into
a fight with his brother Cedric. “Just
a brotherly fight, nothing big,” Burns
says. As they scuffled, a large man at
the home approached them. “I guess
he was trying to break it up, but I
wasn’t thinking clearly then,” Burns
says. Burns picked up a stick and
swung at the man, who ducked. The
stick split Cedric’s head open. Burns
spent a week in the Natchez detention
center and then was shipped off to a
safe house in Jackson. “After Natchez,
I didn’t know where my brothers and
sisters were,” he says.
Over the next three years, Burns lived
with foster families in Jackson, Canton
and Prentiss. He was sent to a group
home in Memphis. He was angry and
frustrated and lonely. And the voice
kept popping up more frequently. You
belong to the streets.
That is when his aunt Shirley Burns
stepped up. “I had raised one son and
thought I was through with that part
of my life,” she says. “But I had the
room. I knew he needed help.” She
also took in Dedrick. She laid down
plenty of rules. “I told him he couldn’t
be staying out late, that I didn’t want
his friends in and out of the house, that
the phone couldn’t be ringing all the
time,” she recalls. “All Fredrick said
was ‘Yes, ma’am. Yes ma’am.’ And
he held up his end of the bargain.” He
began to excel at school. Those seeds
were planted and nurtured by Stewpot
Community Services’ after-school
program. “I first met Fredrick when
he was 8 or 9,” says Caroline Ellender,
director of Stewpot’s children’s
services program. “He was a good
student from the beginning. But it
was a process. I was constantly telling
him, ‘You have to sit down and finish
your assignment.’ That allowed his
intellect to grow. “And we talked a lot
about verbalizing his feelings instead
of jumping into a fight. We talked
about calming down and thinking
with a clear head. It took a while, but
I began to see Fredrick turn the other
cheek, so to speak. I knew he was
making progress. I also knew he had
unbelievable potential.”
In his aunt’s
stable environment, Burns blossomed.
Through Keys’ connections, Burns
and several other high school students
from across the Southeast attended the
J.C. and Frankie Watts Youth Leadership
Conference in Washington. Burns
was named the Most Outstanding
Leader. “He was a sophmore competing
against seniors,” Keys says. Burns,
who stands 6-foot-1, 185 pounds,
found his niche in football. “I had a lot
of frustration built up,” he says. During
spring practice before his sophomore
year at Wingfield, he hit a running
back so hard that longtime coach
Odell Jenkins immediately made him
a starting linebacker. Against Meridian
High that season, he made 14 tackles,
blocked a field goal and sacked highly
touted quarterback Tyler Russell three
times. He has received no football
scholarship offers, possibly because
he missed eight games his senior year
with a quadricep injury. He is leaning
toward accepting a partial academic
scholarship to Mississippi State University
and walking on in football.
“Wherever he goes, he’ll play,” Keys
says. But his growth in recent years
is about more than grades and football
statistics. This year he helped
classmates fill out their college applications.
Burns chose to use money
he earned working at the Crawdad
Shack on Lakeland Drive to help pay
students’ field trip fees. They couldn’t
afford it.
When he spotted a teammate in the
locker room with underwear pieced
together by safety pins, Burns bought
him several pair.
“You can’t describe Fredrick with one
word,” Ellender says. “He is a leader.
Creative. A survivor. Athletic. He’s
all those things, but so much more.”
She says he is also “a mother hen”
when it comes to his siblings, whom
he sees sporadically. The two eldest
live in Jackson and have families of
their own. Two sisters are with a foster
family in Tupelo. Cedric lives with a
foster family in West Point. Two other
sisters reside with an uncle in Jackson.
Dazmond, the youngest who is
6, is with a foster family in Jackson.
Dedrick remains with his aunt. About
a year ago, Burns asked Dazmond’s
foster parents if he could visit. “Why
would you want to do that to him?”
one of them responded. “They finally
agreed to let me go to church with
them, and I got to see him like that,”
he says.
That afternoon, Burns showed Dazmond
photographs of all his brothers
and sisters. “I don’t know them,” he
responded. “Man, that broke my heart,”
Burns says. “See, my dream is that one
day we’ll all get grown and become
a family again. But I just worry that
time has taken away so much. Will we
have that bond like brothers and sisters
should? Is that still possible?”
On the night of his graduation, another
voice returned. It was his mother’s.
“She told me things I’d never heard
before,” he says, his voice cracking.
“She told me, ‘I had my own troubles,
but there wasn’t a night before I closed
my eyes that I didn’t ask God to watch
over all of you. And he did. Seeing you
up there giving that speech today made
me so proud of you.’
Burns fiddles with his cell phone for
a few seconds. “I can’t tell you,” he
says with a lump in his throat, “what
hearing those words come out of my
mama’s mouth meant to me.”
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